“Life becomes easier when you learn to accept an apology you never got.” – Robert Brault

So many of us desire to hear an apology from someone that deeply wounded us. So many of us don’t get it. Why do these two little words hold so much power? “I’m sorry”… “I’M SORRY”… and just like that a heartfelt apology lifts the pain that held you down for such a long time  and your whole being is able to rest… to see the good things that surrounded you the whole time. But how does one go about an apology that has never been received? Do you pull your hair in anger and exhaustion for waiting for one?  How long can it last?

Have you ever experienced that?

I know I have. 

The wait for that apology made me tired… angry… yet it never came.

It crumbled my being… it shifted who I was before. The being of happiness, love, and so much passion was filled with hate… deep deep hate towards you. All this time, I waited to hear “I’m sorry” from you for all the things you’ve done. Yet, you never did.

And then I came to a realization. The apology will never come. Ever. You simply don’t have a heart.

But you know, I forgive you anyway. I’m done. I gotta live my life, a life that is so beautiful when the pain is gone.

O