There is so much I want to share. To share how the past 7 months have been for me, for us.

I’ve told myself that I am going to write at least once a month about the things with the baby, so in time, I can look back and re-live these precious moments– the moments that might get forgotten over time. And I was right.

I try to close my eyes and remember the first night with her. I remember glimpses but not every moment. To me, that is incredibly sad. To forget.

However, it has been a wild ride but so amazing. Being a mama taught me the superpower of patience, something that I have lacked my entire life before Aspen.

There are moments that make me just stop and laugh at myself for how I do things… the songs I make up to sing to her while changing the diaper to keep her from wiggling too much, to just catch her attention for a little bit or to make her giggle. Oh, those baby giggles. They melt my heart every single time. I don’t think I will ever get tired of hearing them.

The moments where I always call my husband– come here, look, look what she’s doing… at something that might be just her splashing in the bathtub out of excitement or dangling a toy in a funny way.

Really, having a baby opened up my eyes to find joy in simple things like she does. Everything to her is so new, so interesting… when the cat/dog walks by, she stops everything and loudly exclaims “oooooh” – her way of “I see you!”

Being a mama is tough. It is so ridiculously tough at times. There is often no sleep, no time to eat breakfast or lunch, take a shower, and always being late to everything.

But, my dear friends and fellow mamas out there, it is so so rewarding to watch this tiny person grow and discover new things all around her. That is a true gift of the motherhood.

O